Finding Balance

This past weekend had its ups and downs. One of the best parts was just hanging out with my mom. I spent several hours out and about with her and talking her ear off. Yes you all know I am quite good at talking peoples ears off. The good part was she got time to talk to. One of the biggest things she said to me was to make sure I find a balance in my life, and to not only work on my physical body (losing weight and running) but also to look at my body Hollistically. She also said she was glad to see me getting excited about running again and not looking at it negatively. My mom is completely right about both of those things. With finding a balance, I have a tendency to start something (new or not new) and become obsessed with it. It then becomes my whole life. This entire past year it was obsessing about work, which helped me with work but I also think it hurt me in someways as I wasnt able to seperate myself from work and work stresses. In high school my obsession was definitely running (Michaela and Lisa how many times did I torment you guys with countdowns to track season starting?) I tried to balance it out with friends but I didnt always do a good job. In College is when this obsession switched to working, I hate to say it but I became a workaholic. Pretty much the more I was working the happier I was. Whats interesting is I can almost already feel myself becoming obsessed over this weight loss thing, and running. Now I know I need to find a spiritual way to heal my body as well. Now I am not saying religion when I say spirtual, I mean I may but that is something I need to figure out. I just mean i need to work on things like meditating, and different ways to relax and reflect. This may be connected to my running, as I love to do a lot of my thinking while I run or walk. I just have to remember to take care of my entire body. I am actually hoping that by the time I see my neurologist next in October that I will have enough weight that she ccan lower my medication dose. I know I will never be able to come off my meds but lowering the dose would be wonderful. So runnign is not just helping me lose weight but also helping me with different body systems. The other thing my mom said to me was that she was glad I am happier exercising again. I realized afterwards that what she said is true. For quite some time, I have been looking at running as something everyone else expects me to do and was forcing me to do. Somewhere in that negative attitude I lost perspective on how much I actually do love running. The runner in the picture below is the runner I want to become again. I dont necessarily mean that is how fast I want to be. I just mean I want to be the runner who loved running (on my way because I am once again upset when I cant get out for a run) and when I was running nothing else mattered! I could run forever and as long as I was giving it my best I was happy. I am very much looking forward to tomorrows workout and actually the rest of this summer because I can spend the time getting myself in a good place before the new school year starts.