Underestimating myself

So one thing I realized during and after todays workout was that I have been underestimating my abilities. I have been putting myself down and telling myself that I cant do it. Because of that I have been limiting what I have been trying to do. Todays run really proved to me several things 1) I can still do it :) 2) I am stronger than I think 3) I need to stop listening to my head all the time and listen to my heart more. I also just love to run, I know I have been driving my sister(and some friends, especially those who didnt know me before) with all my talking about running. But to be honest I am just feeling so good today and most of it has nothing to do with how long I ran today, it has more to do with the fact that I didnt give in to myself wanting to stop, and I didnt pay too close attention to the timer, I really just enjoyed running in its purest form. I am beginning to run with confidence again, and believe it or not I was smiling the whole time. And yes the competitor in me came out a little bit, when someone was on the treadmill next to me, but hey I think thats been ingrained in me since I was in 7th grade, except when youre on the roads its passing the shirts in front of you :) This week has been good for getting me back running on a daily basis but my challenge next week will be making sure I continue it when I go back to working two jobs. I definitely wont be walking to and from the gym every day but thatll just be an extra part of a workout. Overall I am feeling really good. Running definitely influences my mood as you can tell. Another thing I thought about today was how my doctors have always said that running when I was in middle school and High school is what probably kept my seizures under control and stopped them from showing up until Senior year (which is when I started noticing them not when I got diagnosed with them). I figure if I run again like I did then with the dedication that I gave it back then ( some people call it obsession I call it dedication), it cant do any harm and may even help my medicine to keep the seizures at bay. So overall, this has been a good week :) Its funny how 4 days,good workouts, advice from good friends, and lots of encouragement can change the way you look at things. I will never underestimate any of that. Thank you to everyone who has dealt with my changing moods and encourages me and is a sounding board as well :).